2 more months to go till the highlight of my life, and I am "effing" stress. I am having insomnia since 2 weeks ago. I kind of look like a panda now. It's just so hard to sleep when you think about bzillion things at night. Usually girls, well, most girls will be so thrilled to get married cuz oh I don't know, maybe they forgot about the "consequences". That might sound harsh to any groom but I'm sorry, I love seeing your girl getting married to you, but those stuff are not for me...well I am freaking out. It's not that we're having problems, he's definitely a sweetheart but the problem is now is that...not to say that I am afraid of a commitment just like the typical playboy might say, but I am just afraid of the future. I hate gambling. Marriage is a gamble. Well that is what my mum said. I am just afraid of putting my future in a man's hand. I don't like that sound. In fact, I hate it. Maybe it's because I am feminist.
Damn. je suis dans la merde.
I don't like to think about negative things but I can't help it since I am surrounded by comedians. Example, I went to see my supplier this morning. As we were talking about business, she asked me this;
Aunty supplier: So, kamu kahwin dengan anak dato' ka?
Me: Tak.
Aunty supplier: Oo..Anak orang kaya la?
Me: Tak.
Aunty supplier: Aiya! Bukan anak orang kaya pun kamu mau a!
Me: haha. ala aunty, I takmau family dia la aunty.
Aunty: Oo..yaka? Dia rajin ka?
Me: Mestilah aunty.Saya sudah lama kenal dia dari Paris lagi.
Aunty Supplier: Oo.. Sudah kerja ka?
Me: Sudah aunty, dekat French company sini.
Aunty supplier: Oo.. Bagus bagus
Okay then I switched the topic back to business. 10 minutes later she asked again;
Aunty supplier: Handsome ka your fiance?
Me: (Sigh) Aiyoo aunty, mestilah handsome. I have to look at his face every morning for the rest of my life, kalau tak handsome cannot la aunty.
Aunty supplier: Hahahaha
Look, I know my supplier, my seamstresses, my assistant(yes I have new assistant now,yay) they all are worried and want the best for me, but those kind of conversation is not helping me to fight the insomnia at all..heeeelp. Plus, after an incident with one of his family members, makes me feel reluctant of doing a lot of things. I just hate when people take kindness for weakness. I just hope that in the future, everybody can read between the lines that nothing is free in this world and do not take advantage of other people. Makes you look like a cheapskate and desperate. Let's hope for the best and look at these pretty things shall we?
Damn. je suis dans la merde.
I don't like to think about negative things but I can't help it since I am surrounded by comedians. Example, I went to see my supplier this morning. As we were talking about business, she asked me this;
Aunty supplier: So, kamu kahwin dengan anak dato' ka?
Me: Tak.
Aunty supplier: Oo..Anak orang kaya la?
Me: Tak.
Aunty supplier: Aiya! Bukan anak orang kaya pun kamu mau a!
Me: haha. ala aunty, I takmau family dia la aunty.
Aunty: Oo..yaka? Dia rajin ka?
Me: Mestilah aunty.Saya sudah lama kenal dia dari Paris lagi.
Aunty Supplier: Oo.. Sudah kerja ka?
Me: Sudah aunty, dekat French company sini.
Aunty supplier: Oo.. Bagus bagus
Okay then I switched the topic back to business. 10 minutes later she asked again;
Aunty supplier: Handsome ka your fiance?
Me: (Sigh) Aiyoo aunty, mestilah handsome. I have to look at his face every morning for the rest of my life, kalau tak handsome cannot la aunty.
Aunty supplier: Hahahaha
Look, I know my supplier, my seamstresses, my assistant(yes I have new assistant now,yay) they all are worried and want the best for me, but those kind of conversation is not helping me to fight the insomnia at all..heeeelp. Plus, after an incident with one of his family members, makes me feel reluctant of doing a lot of things. I just hate when people take kindness for weakness. I just hope that in the future, everybody can read between the lines that nothing is free in this world and do not take advantage of other people. Makes you look like a cheapskate and desperate. Let's hope for the best and look at these pretty things shall we?
One of my favorite piece
Client/Friend Malay traditional Reception dress
Full embroidery
Too tense. Go for GODIVA
Looking at finished pieces makes me feel great!
100% Swarovski
Client/Friend Shoes
2 commentaires:
Truly nice pieces there, Babe.
Dont you wanna blog about your own prep ? SHould be fun !
I don't know if you have ever heard of this... They say never do business with friends and family. Harsh, but most of the times it's true. =]
Be good Babe, courage v things u do.
Hehe yes,thought about the wedding prep too hehe :) well what you said is true, even my father said so. well, it's a learning process for all I guess :) we will never succeed if we've never failed.
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